Emotional grief

Feeling an emotional grief
For not being capable of keep going in life
like the rest of my friends
I have so much grief I can’t even explain

I didn’t suffer properly my constant disappointment
I’m surrounded by fear and emptiness
And I have so much anger inside me
I can’t even verbalize

I hate noise, I hate this infinite sadness
I hate my walls,
I hate, but I love life
I want to keep living

Noise is too loud
Mind is too dark
Body? Too tired
Soul? Empty

I’m trying my best, I promise.

Picturen taken in December, 2023 with a Redmi. Shoot by Santiago, my boyfriend