fuckoff

your actions pushed me away every time.
your addictions came through every time.
your heart break pushed me away.
your selfishness drove me mad.
don't you know how long i tried to fix you?
did you not care that i broke loving you even after i left?

you tried to hold on to me because you let me go.
you tried the smallest things to make me pick you,
but here is the thing; you never picked me.

i begged you to love me.
which never worked.
you wanted me to drop everything for you again?
you never woke up.
i left years ago.

allison mcnary
IG: @thepoet5280