Toxic. (Part 5.)

you called me a drug you
couldn't get out of your head,
but i was doing other drugs to get
you out of mine.
you played empty memories,
pretending we were creating more.

yes, it was true,
at your fingertips, i crumbled,
at someone else's i grew stronger.
in your bed, i couldn't sleep,
in someone else's i slept better than ever.
around you, i wore a mask like it was an everlasting masquerade.
i didn't have to pretend around
that someone else.
i'm sorry, you couldn't make me feel
the way that someone did, even though god knows, you tried your hardest.

i'm sorry, im so sorry.
again and again, i can apologise.
but, it will never be enough.

the truth is, sweetheart,
i didn't love you enough to
be in love with you.