Lamentations

After so many years, living through someone's successes, hopes, aspirations, disappointments and failures. What does one do when they see the end of that all? Sure there was a time I checked out for about a year and a half, because of schizophrenia. Got woken up to him wild eyed outside. Him gathering up provisions, tried to take all the coffee when I didn't give him the 'bigger' amount he called me a selfish ho. Yesterday he called me a bitch and a stupid ass. No surely this person doesn't love me, I know that I know the reality. Saying I need a plan and a budget.