Rough Day Fighting Old Demons

Having a serious lack of motivation today.. Sneaky little negative thoughts and self doubt keep rearing their ugly head at me.
Its kind of funny how we as humans sometimes feel the most vulnerable to these kind of spiritual attacks when we come to the place in our lives where that is exactly what we try to avoid.
Tomorrow is my last day at dispatch!! I should be elated with the idea that I finally f@*%ing did it, I'm free. Instead I'm left here with my thoughts and am having a moment of going back to my old self and letting fear overrun my mind. I guess thats why they say old habits are hard to break right?
I dont necessarily believe that its taking a step back though. As long as I keep pushing forward and reaching for the stars despite the whisper in my mind, in my book thats progress.
CD