MY HEAD HURTS!

Here I am. Just got home from work and I really wanted to record a song for the steemit open mic week. My head hurts though. The kind of headache that makes it hurt when I blink. Do singing will add to the pressure I'm feeling in my head.
My headache turned 17? In October this year. I have had a headache every single day for 17 years. This is because of brain damage caused by countless brain surgeries I've had throughout my life. This fucking sucks.
One thing that could help it is Cannabis, but I live in Utah. Where religion rules. Since the Mormon church said they don't think medicinal cannabis should be a thing, I can't use it legally.
Doctors here have, at one point, given me 60 tabs of Morphine AND 120 tabs of Tramadol A MONTH! I can't have cannabis though?!?
Tell me how this makes sense.