Aspergers, Logic and Metaphysics

Aspergers, Logic and Metaphysics

So, you know how some people are very matter of fact, straight talking and like everything to be in order? Well multiply that by ten and you’ve gone some way to understanding an Aspie. Although, it’s a sliding scale – a spectrum they call it.

Hi, my name is Grant and I didn’t know I had Asperger’s syndrome until I was in my forties – although I’m sure everyone around me did but just couldn’t put a name to it. But when I got ill and my carefully ordered life and job and family collapsed, it came out.

I had a job as an engineer – no surprise there – and a loving family who put up with my eccentricities. Then out of the blue I started having vertigo episodes, not just dizzy spells but full blown, world spinning, falling down, unable to move, being sick vertigo. I was diagnosed with Meniere’s disease – which is just hellish.

I spent a lot of time lying down – because I couldn’t fall any further – with my eyes shut, and had to retreat into my own mind as the outside wasn’t making sense anymore.

My world of numbers and lists – don’t talk to me about lists – and definites and where I fitted in the scheme of things disappeared. I almost had a breakdown. Well I suppose I did in some respects and a lot of my eccentricities became more pronounced. I eventually had to go and see someone about it and that’s when I found out I had Aspergers.

All this time being forced to lie down and just think, made me look, with my logical brain, at how I interacted with the world from my newly enforced restriction. I started to analyse coincidences and how they became synchronictites. How I might think at length on something then a programme about it appears on the TV, or a newspaper article pops up.
Coincidences like this became more and more common and for someone with a Mr Spock brain, it couldn’t be rationally explained.
If I had not been forced to think about these observations they might have gone unnoticed as I busied myself with the minutiae of ordinary life. But think I did and I had to find a way of explaining it.

The more I looked into it, the weirder it became. I realized there was a connection between what you thought about, inside your head, and what happened in reality. My logic said no, but my observations said yes.
Then I wondered if you could influence what happens in your reality by how you think? Surely not. This is fairy tale stuff. This is magic. This does not compute.

So, I’d like to share with you in further posts, what I have found and how I have explained it to myself – and maybe you could try it too.
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