The Lost Love

Being the recipient of physical and emotional abuse by someone you are deeply in love with is absolutely the most confusing emotion possible. On one hand you don't understand how someone who claims to be so deeply in love with you can be so cruel, heartless and insensitive. On the the other hand you search your soul to discover what YOU have done to cause the insensitivity. The deep feelings of confusion and the need to know why it is occuring drive you even harder to love them even more.
Most of the time you don't see it coming. It could be a beautiful sunny day, a cold winter night, at the mall, walking through a park...you just never know. It could be ignited by the glance from another woman, a glance AT another woman, the failure to hold the door for her, not filling her wine glass full enough, bringing her a rubber band instead of her blue hair-tie...you just don't know!!!
In the end you lay awake at 3am hoping the new day brings nothing but happiness and hugs rather than screaming and the bitter hell of punches to the head and kicks in the groin, all the while trying to reassure her that your love is undying and pure!!!!
Sleep is never enough to rid your aching heart of the emotional pain.