a study in jealousy

it's hard to be happy for the success of others when you've got nothing to show for yourself.
you can say "that's wonderful!"
you can say "i'm so proud of you!"
you can say "congratulations!"
but each utterance reinforces
how behind you are
how lazy you are
how you will never be successful
not in the least
there's been a race happening
this whole time
and believe it or not,
you've already lost.