Lust in my thoughts

I'm Sorry"
I'm feeling empty,
That's how I've been lately.
The weather might be sunny,
But my eyes were crying, honey.
I've been suffering greatly
Due to my depression and anxiety,
My thoughts kills me slowly,
I might lose this battle, I'm sorry.
Of all the battles I've fought,
This was the hardest, I thought.
How could I win a battle over myself?
I've tried every thing but it does not help.
I've lost my motivation,
All I feel is suffocation.
I've had enough, I want to rest
Please tell my family "I'm sorry, I couldn't be the best."