Tears, Only Tears everywhere

My eyes are not crying.
The tears are not falling.
My face is not mourning.
My mouth might be smiling.

But inside I am mess, such a mess. Everything is too little or too much. My soul is crying and crying and crying. I am overwhelm by my emotions to an extend I don't understand.

I am full of hope

So why I am despairing?
I only feel pain and sorrow.
Joy looks like an excuse to hurt me even more.
My heart needs to rest.
Please.
I need a break.

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Photo by Sharon Christina Rørvik on Unsplash
Music by Two Steps From Hell