Older but Wiser

Hello, everyone! Sharing my thoughts for today. Have a blessed Sunday one and all!

When we were young, oh sorry, I mean younger, we look forward to exploring the world, trying out new things and if anything fails, we anxiously wait for the world to save us. There is this rebellious part of each one that would endlessly reason out for the things you did which you think are right. You fall head over heels in love and anticipate the romance of a lifetime from that guy you had eyes on back in grade school. You wish for a trip abroad thinking that it would definitely ease your worries. Your heart becomes warmer when you receive a text saying “I miss you” from that someone who you cannot stop thinking about every day. And when your heart gets broken, you think that things will never be fine and becomes fixated on what went wrong.

But when you grow older, things change. Everything changes. Boom! You realize that other people will never save you but yourself. No grand gestures are necessary. It is actually things that you used to consider mundane could keep you sane and save you. Wishing for trips anywhere no longer soothe your mind instead, just the sight of the glowing full moon while standing on your patio with a cup of milk tea or brewed coffee on hand can make you feel a little less lonely. It is as if you have this deeper connection with the moon and it is only the moon that is capable of listening to your heart’s rambles.

Instead of throwing cups and bowls, you start to collect them with gusto while you wonder why such interest in these petty things. Your concept of intimacy surpasses being physical or romantic. You discern it when a person becomes interested in your stuff and you begin to tell him detailed backstories. Or you feel important when someone understands you a little more with the hobbies and interests you’ve shared. Instead of picking up the phone and calling friends when feeling lonesome, you opt to hold a book and get a good read or better yet, catch beautiful twilights as these would remind you of new and brighter days ahead. You find satisfaction in spending more time with your plants and pets. You tend to appreciate more home-cooked meals and things around you that you took for granted when you were young.

Humdrum routines make you realize the beauty of slowing down. You try harder to avoid unnecessary stresses and begin to live your life with a sense of purpose. Without hesitation, you would empty your pocket to let go of all things which you find so heavy to carry. You refuse a half-hearted love as it would only become a burden. Looking for love has become analogous to looking for yourself and finding yourself would mean finding love. Best of all, instead of groping for the world and others to save you, you eventually come to a realization that it is only you that can save you, the one who keeps you going and lifts you when you fall.

Life is capricious. Come what may, it is only yourself who you will value the most. That’s because you will always be there for you.

Until then,

@lorelei.cortes

Snapshots were taken in Abra de Ilog, Mindoro. All content is mine unless otherwise stated.