My inner emotions

I dont know what um tryin to say but i want to say something like i want to burden off myself ...like there is some kind of monster of emotions in my body who wants to fu***** come out of it....i had always tried to hold it...but sometimes i feel let it come out..let me burden off..but then i feel who cares...who cares about ur fu*****emotions...when your nearest one's dont ..let alone the world....sometimes i feel like um strange just like a martian..may be these things happen to me alone..but hell yeah i want to come out of it..or may be not..""how can i go through this" is a hypothetical concept i can never explain....what to do man ...i dont know...