Want to run away

Want to run away
I'm 19 years old. I like to feel free to mix with everyone. I love to spend time with friends. It's also good to go around with family or relatives. But this opportunity has not come in my life. Because, people in my family believe in old philosophies. I'm good at studies.Even then, the book is always forced to face the face. I can not bear it for 9-10 months. It seems that my closest people could not tolerate me. They are just acting in front of me and keeping me in love. Now, I can not accept my mother-in-law. Wish to escape from home.I do not understand anyone, I do not understand. That night, all these things rotate in the head all the time. Sometimes I cry too badly. I want normal life.