My first ever blog

Well hi everyone! I have been thinking of doing this for a long time - writing a blog that is - and finally here it is, on STEEMIT which I am very new to! This is really just a test run - I guess there's many of us joining in with this great new platform, a whole new world.

So I will start by introducing myself.

First of all I'm a mum of three. My kids are all spaced a long way apart, and all three have different dads! It's been an interesting experience and an interesting ride, and not at all how I planned my life to turn out. We never know what life holds in store for us despite our best laid plans or lack of.

My guiding motto is this:

'God, give me the courage to change the things I can, the serenity to accept the things I can't, and the wisdom to know the difference'.

Without this, I think I would have gone insane. Sometimes I wonder if I'm sane anyway! I always feel just a tad borderline! But I commend myself that I've never managed to end up in a psychiatric institution, not to imply anything bad about people who have.

So to move on from that, 18 years into motherhood I am finally feeling like I'm growing up, and getting a real sense of direction for my life. It's a wonderful feeling.

And as much as I love my children (as much as humanly possible) I feel like the stress and anxiety of having them, caring for them, loving them, almost renders the incredible joys of having children completely neutral if you get what I'm trying to say. It's certainly a massive learning curve whereby you learn to put others needs before your own, for example going without sleep when you are absolutely desperately in need but you have no choice but to keep on keeping on, pushing yourself beyond normal levels of sanity. It's a time in my life I am quite happy to leave behind... mind you I did have a very difficult sleeper with child number three, who sometimes woke up to 20 times per night and seems to need less overall sleep than what I do!!!

I do take my hat off to people who have chosen not to have children. One can undoubtedly have a very rewarding and satisfying life without them. There are so many ways in this world we can find meaning perhaps without the tortuous levels of sleep deprivation!!

So anyway I think this comes to the end of my basic introduction. I have not yet mastered how to use markdown but I'm posting anyway!! Hi everyone an looking forward to getting to know you all, in this new virtual world we are all exploring and getting to know!

In love and peace

A fledgling steemer!