Am I dead?

No, I'm not dead. I just haven't been doing so great. My phone exploded during an extensive job search so I can't get any calls from employers and a new one isn't coming until Friday according to tracking. I'm quitting smoking pot which is giving me bad sleep sweats and I feel exhausted all day. I can't eat. I want to fall to my knees then hit the floor head on, maybe the floor is cooler than this 120 degree heat.

So I'm not dead,
but I am a ghost.