You Determine

When the strings cut loosed and the beads scattered;
The tension goes away and the center refuses to hold.

Peace becomes illusion and the mind goes astray;
Peace of mind becomes impossible and meaningless;

Insomnia, anxiety and agoraphobia couple with self judgment and guilt;
Characterized such body, soul and mind.

Spiritual knowledge of oneself;
Spiritual knowledge of oneness with the Father;
Fades away like an airplane varnishes in a cloudy sky.

Unqualified to be called Temple?
No more freedom? Mental slavery?
Yes. Mental captivity becomes an unforgettable virtue.

Joy? Gone. Pain? Present
Hope? Not anymore. Despair? A friend.

Every good virtue balloons into the air;
Self awareness sinks deeper into the ocean of ignorance and guilt.

And you begin to weigh light.
Emptiness seems to be what you build on
Inferiority complexes, your building materials;

All these stem from breaking your lifetime cherished values
Being a mental slave of others who do your thinking for you.

Behold!
Such moments you the Devil and the Good;
You do the condemnation and the acceptance;

All in the mind. Your thoughts determine.

So better listen to the right dove on your shoulders, not on other shoulders, and restore your distractions.

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