#6 YOU

The thought of you is addicting. Even everytime you crossed my mind, my heart feels like being stabbed a thousand times, but still I cant stop. It feels like cutting yourself, you know its bad but it feels good. Somehow, not including you in my daily thoughts feel so wrong, forgetting you is wrong. It feels so completely wrong.

"And when you love someone, you just, you dont stop, ever. ... If I could take the whole world's advice and just move on, that wouldnt be love. That would be some disposable thing that is not worth fighting for" -Ted Mosby

I know for the fact that you are supposed to be some disposable thing that this not worth fighting for because you're a coward, abusive, toxic and just bad for me. But it is what it is. Im opening my wound, salting it every single day. But I cant move on because my stupid heart says you're not disposable..