My Thoughts

A war rages inside of me,
While i smile outwardly,
Content with my hypocrisy,
Content with all the fakery.

I pretend to be someone,
Claiming the name of the Son,
Saying I am Heaven-won,
Yet I am so undone.

My sin wraps icy claws around me,
Screaming I am so unworthy,
Bellowing so terrifically,
Drowning my ears out to purity.

I am screaming out in pain,
Running from engulfing flames.
I cry out to the one true Name,
For was it not my sin He came?

Jesus, Jesus, save me from insanity,
All this temporary vanity,
It haunts me, hunts me doggedly,
I’m drowning, oh, so horribly!

Jesus, save me, grant me peace,
I give you all, not just a piece.
May you, O Lord, ever increase,
But I shall continue to ever decrease.

Lord, here I lie so helplessly,
You’ve rescued me so blessedly,
You carried me effortlessly,
But I keep wandering needlessly.

Grant me wisdom, O Shepherd, dear.
Keep me always; keep me near.
Let me be free like the leaping deer.
Let me at you beauty peer.

A war inside me rages,
Locking me in my own mind’s cages.
I progress in Insanity’s stages,
So I write on all these pages.

Blessed Christ, to You I pray,
Guide me, save me every day.
Keep me on the Narrow Way,
Keep me beside You close to stay.

May Your name I always bless,
In Your Shadow let me rest.
I know You always know what’s best,
Let you Hand my face caress.

Let me trust, let me believe,
Let me to your bosom cleave.

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