My school lies and promises

The lie I always told myself in school was that I would go out more and relate with people. My movement in school was very predictable, school to house, house to school, and sometimes to my school fellowship. That was basically my entire routine. Every semester, I promised myself that I would change, that I would socialize more, visit people, and build more relationships.

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In my mind, it sounded easy. I would tell myself, “This semester, I won’t just be indoors. I’ll go out more.” But that promise rarely lasted beyond intention. Once I got back home from school and laid down on my bed, that was the end of all plans. Even when the thought of going out crossed my mind, my body had already decided otherwise. The bed always won.

I wasn’t antisocial; I was just comfortable. My bed felt like a safe space where stress disappeared, and energy was restored. So instead of dressing up to go out or replying messages asking me to visit, I would just stay back, scrolling on my phone or resting. Before I knew it, the day would end, and the promise I made to myself would quietly fail again.

I had just one friend who lived about five minutes away from my place. That was the only place I managed to go outside my routine. Apart from that, if you were looking for me, you would most likely find me on my bed. It became almost funny how consistent I was at breaking that promise to myself.

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Each new semester, I still told the same lie with confidence. I believed that maybe this time, things would be different. But the truth was that change required intentional effort, not just good intentions. And while I kept telling myself I would go out more and relate better, my actions always spoke louder.

Looking back, I’ve learned that knowing your weakness is important. Comfort can easily become a trap if you’re not careful. I’m still learning to take small steps, maybe standing up from the bed, maybe saying yes to one invitation, maybe visiting just one person. Because growth doesn’t always come from big plans; sometimes, it starts with simply getting off the bed.

I am inviting @tomi.layo, @olaidevow and @prin0810 to this week prompt.
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