Affection that has never been explained

So i have started a series of free verse poetry and writing short notes/letters. Many of you have liked and appreciated me. Thus i have decided to post every week.

I have a university degree, won medals, have one of the biggest social circle and read hundreds of book maybe thousand but i have never found any affection like i have for you in any fucking book.

Just wanna know what will be the end or i will end as it ends, or i will live with this forever, i tried to avoid this heart wrenching fate but i just can't, it feels like i am bound to be in love with u.