So, this is a record.

I'm writing this as a sort of half biography, half memoir, half preservation of self. A suicide note of sorts, though death may not come by my own hand and if it does it will not come soon. I plan to update it daily, though if I don't don't assume I'm gone, at least not immediately.

Hi, I'm Zed, at least for now. I'm a 22 year old transgender woman, but might not be a binary one. Still working that out. I like tabletop role playing games, video adaptations of those tabletop experiences, overly complicated grand strategy games, and film as an art form. I also have no will to live.

That might seem strange, coming from someone attempting to stave off their second death. But I don't. As much as I fear my second death, I don't fear my first. I've fought enough in my time on this earth, and there's no fight left. Maybe I'll get some more someday, maybe not. Until then, I just kinda keep lurching on.

All I got for now, sorry.