Irreversible

I've lived in fear Of the irreversible The actions that can't be undone The mixing of things Like blood, like lives The nature of things Like when air expands And cannot be stuffed In the bottle again Without expenditures of force So great, or the words I speak Once they've left my lips Upon this same air Cannot be put back Cannot be contained Because what hurts you depends on the path Not the state And I know what that is The friction we made, the heat Consumed us both And caused the great release The steam from the radiator Surrendered its heat To the emptiness of your bed It touched you with an invisible hand As invisible as mine normally is As invisible as I usually am Always there, but not really there Hiding in your iPhone screen You couldn't feel my ghost, unlike the Cast iron pipes on the skin I touched When I held you close in my mind But I no longer fear the irreversible I no longer fear what can't be undone To do so would be to fear The atoms in my own body To fear who and what I am The dark matter of my soul But the thoughts in my head Are what I now fear most