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Autumn Christian

@snowmachine

The strange part of Steemit. A collection of lovely dark stories, psychological apocrypha, and musings about the weirdness of being alive.

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Autumn Christian
@snowmachine Nov 22, 2018, 2:37 AM UTC

Acrophobia: Fear of Heights

I never had a fear of heights when I was younger. I didn't really understand mortality either. My brother, Dad, and I used to tromp through the backwoods of Oklahoma and Arkansas, climb trees, hike u…

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Autumn Christian
@snowmachine Oct 9, 2018, 12:08 AM UTC

Things to Do When You Feel Terrible

Do you feel terrible this week? Read on! My eyes currently look like the dead sea. I've consumed enough iced coffee and puffy cheetos to fill at least 1/16th the stomach of a blue whale. I feel like…

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Autumn Christian
@snowmachine Oct 8, 2018, 5:33 AM UTC

A Letter to the Shadow

Hello again. While I was on the beach in San Diego with my dogs, enjoying the surf and the sunset, you were in the dark woods, near the mouth of the hush place. You laid azaleas at the foot of the ob…

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Autumn Christian
@snowmachine Sep 24, 2018, 5:44 PM UTC

How to be Great

How do you become great? I know one thing for sure: You don't become great by doing nothing. By doing the same things over and over again, in a kind of blunted, cow-eyed repetition. By returning to t…

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Autumn Christian
@snowmachine Sep 18, 2018, 5:35 AM UTC

How Could I Possibly Love Me?

I hit a vein expecting there to be smoke, instead what came up was gold. And unsure of what I saw, I tried to convince my mind’s eye that it wasn’t anything special. That it only glittered in the dar…

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Autumn Christian
@snowmachine Sep 12, 2018, 2:00 AM UTC

How Shadow People Taught Me About Creativity

The phrase “Do one thing every day that scares you,” lifted from Eleanor Roosevelt to populate the fancy boarders of Pinterest memes and personal quotes to live by on OKcupid, is almost laughable. It…

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Autumn Christian
@snowmachine Sep 11, 2018, 1:55 AM UTC

You're Right, I Can't Possibly Understand: On Depression

The most controversial thing I say is probably that depression is your responsibility to fix. But, what would I know? It's not like I've been standing where you're standing, glass in the back of my n…

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Autumn Christian
@snowmachine Sep 3, 2018, 7:44 AM UTC

Feelings of Impermanence

Every positive change in my life has required a loss. This shouldn’t be too much of a surprise, we live in a universe where all exchanges require reciprocal physics. Eating dinner is the act of alche…

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Autumn Christian
@snowmachine Aug 30, 2018, 6:13 AM UTC

The Demon or The Shadow

At the time, it seemed like the righteous thing to do. Every bad thing I did, I did in the name of good. I felt justified in cocking my hand back. The rush of anger felt good even. Like a shield and…

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Autumn Christian
@snowmachine Aug 26, 2018, 10:27 PM UTC

The Meaning of Life

I remember searching for a gas cap at night on the dark ground in the freezing Oklahoman winter and I remember laying in the dark in a shitty room I'd rented out in an apartment, with a boy with his…

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